Who are we inside?

It's times like this that I start to wonder who am i an if I'm being childish pouting. It makes me wonder If I have caused the little misunderstanding. Times like this I feel like hibernating in a dark corner or blast a music where no one could see me cry or hear me scream. The simple pleasures of being away, away from everyone who matter. Isolation. Just.. Taking a break from everything. Maybe. Just maybe, everything that is meant to be isn't meant to be. What if? What if this is just a test? A test of patiences. A test to show who we really are? Why do humans do everything to make the other party hurt? Why do we only think about ourselves? Is there a need for the awkward stares and silence looming? How about converting the silence to love and treasuring the fact that the person is here? EGO. We're humans with ego afterall I guess. Sigh! Emo.... It just feels like I'm starting to shut the door soon. Hopefully it doesn't happen. Hopefully.

Looking back

I always felt like I've been reading too many romantic story books that I keep dreaming of a fairytale ending. Sometimes I really wonder if my life were a story book. So much drama, harsh lessons to learn, hurt, despair, sorrows. If I were to write a book on my life's story. I'm pretty sure it'll be quite interesting. As a young girl growing up, to be experiencing what I've gone through has definitely made me into who I am today. Good or bad? That will be for the world to decide. My life's journey, somehow.. Never goes the easy way. When will I experience a normal teenage life and be worry free? Is that even possible?

小笼包

MONDAY, dreaded the whole day at work, like SERIOUSLY! Felt as if time didnt past one second.. Ugh! But thank god my evening was superb. Bee was really sweet to travel down after school just to have dinner with me! ^^ THANK YOU BEEEEEE!! SHIOK! Ate my favourite 小笼包s @ Ding Tai Fung Paragon.

Excuse me, can we place an order please.

Fat boy who loves that one UGLY photo =.=

Spicy Sour Soup

^^ Xiao Long Baos

Oppsi, do i look pretty!

Fried rice with sliced pork

I like the DanDan Mian. (I feel like having that for lunch now)

Dinner was just perfectly filling. But i dont think i've satisfied my cravings at Ding Tai Fung Yet. Can we go again next week?? Purrleasee? *innocent eyes, blink blink blink* We be going anyways. TEEHEE! Bus-ed home & as usual, we love cam-whoring. ^^

Bee, This photo damn gay.

5 Carat ahh, this one you write one ahh.

And if you thought the night ended just there and then. WELL, you're wrong. Basically both of us cant get enough of each others presence *so cheesy* But its true ^-^ So, bee walked me home and we didnt want to say our goodbyes. Guess what we did!!! hahas, we actually took out a beach towel and laid in the center of my drive way and looked at the moon & stars. LITERALLY. (not forgetting eating Strawberry Cheesecake Ben & Jerry) Played with the laser pointer. So pretty. Oh Oh Oh, not sure if what we saw was what we thought we saw,(read slowly to prevent confusing yourself) which was a shooting star. We both went "Did you see that?" Yup. Than Bee went "faster close your eyes and wish" Cute. Anyways, the night ended i needed to wake up early. Sometimes i really wish time would have paused. :)

[[ *PS, text and ignore me again = YOU'RE SO DEAD! ]]

MOVING ON,

Cant wait for tonight. I can predict its gonna be a fun night. Yippie, so excited. 3 Besties playing netball again after soo long, this time with all of our other halves. :) YES!! Wish come true :) Honestly, you have no idea how long i've waited for a day like this to come. *dances around like a crazy girl* Bee, if you read this before playing, PLEASE CLOSE YOUR MOUTH and NOT BE AWED at how AWESOME i play! whahahahhaha! *damn thick skin* Iloveyou!

Road Trip

*TADA* My blog has been revamped. But than again, im not sure as to HOW long i'll stay with this template. I dont really like it. But it's a way more simple concept. Not sure if thats what i'm looking for. Might do a little more adjustments here and there. :) We'll see how it goes.

Anyways, heres what happened this weekend: ROAD TRIP up to Malaysia.

It was really random. Dad called up to ask what i was doing on Saturday and ask if i were free. I was like erm.. yeah, just chilling with Gi. And he went ok good. Can you follow the mechanic up to Malaysia to collect the car? Me and G were like HUH?? ALONE? Oh well, we did Tagged up and i drove back! COOL!! I finally drove in Malaysia. hahaha!

On the way up to Malaysia

Watching Indiana Jones

Cam-whoring :) *as usual

Parked the Car to have Dinner

Sambal Kang Kong

Fried Sweet & Sour Pork

Steamed Cod fish (Super Yummy!)

After dinner, we went for round two at SIA Group Sports Club with Dad, Sarah & Uncle Gary's Family. Sharks Fin Soup my all time favourite. Just feel bad that im endangering a shark. *gulps Anyways, was SUPER FULL after our second dinner than we just wanted to chill and crash out. And i had Ben & Jerrys for supper ^^ Thank you Bee. You make me a happy little girl ;)

COMING SOON

REVAMPING...

Weekends

15 October 2011

So glad that the weekends are here :) Dreaded this week so much. *pouts* Finally i get to spend ONE solid day with Gi. This whole week's just been too tiring for everyone. Oh Well.

Today is just gonna be a R & R day (Rest & Relax) Ooo, woke up early today to head out. Love the fact that i manage to soak up some Vitamin D. And now its so cooling. Yippie!

Oh well.. till then.

Adios Samigos!

A visit that brought back memories

13 October 2011

Headed to NUH(Outram) yesterday night after work to visit Gideon's grandpa. Gi was really sweet to travel down to Cityhall to meet me and than travelled back up again since he came from school. ^^ It was nice taking the public transport once again. Been to used to sitting in the car to almost everywhere i go. But really i love the convenience of the car. But than again, public transport has its benefits too. 1) you dont need to remember where you parked, pay for parking and you're free to roam ANYWHERE. cos you dont need to head back to get the car. True!

Anyways, after visit gramps(YeYe, haha) at the hospital, we walked over to visit my god-brother before taking a short walk in Chinatown. I was looking forward to eat at Blk 5 Banda street, but there went anything much. :( So Cabbed down to geylang to eat TIM SUM!!! My favourite at 126. So happy! Cravings satisfied. But kinda had to refrain from the fried ones. But at least i got to eat some. Thanks Bee for cutting them into small pieces ^^ so i could chew on them. (sorry no visuals, we were too hungry)

Anyways, visiting his grandpa made me missed my grandparents so much. My memories of them was always happy since i was just a little girl and they'll always play with me. Plus at that time, i was the youngest among the cousins. Being in the hospital brought some sad memories too. The last memories of seeing them on their last moments. All my relatives crying their hearts out. DEATH is just makes one feel so low and remorse. Looking at how skinny my grandparents look. Sometimes you even wish they'll go cos looking at them in that state makes you feel like the are suffering. I wont detail everything down. But, Ah Gong, Ah Ma, Ah Gong and Popo i miss you guys. Keep watching over all of us yeah! ^^

Till Next time..

WEEKENDS i could have EVERYTIME

12 October 2011

[WARNING!]

This post contains heap loads of visuals.

HELLO EVERYONE!! So many fun things has happened over the past week that i want to make sure i jot everything down. Memories sometimes do fade away.

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY TIFFANY TAY!!!!

(actual date is TODAY-12 October)

Anyways, celebrated Tiffany's 22nd Birthday on Saturday (08oct). Had a wonderful house party at her place. But before that, some behind the scene short stories. We had to cook and bring food over since it was pot-luck. And not fogetting that i stayed up pass 3am to make her a simple Birthday Card.

Just look at ALL the markers and effort that i had to go through. (haha!) But thankfully, there was this sweet boy who stayed up with me and broke the toilet cover after. LOL!

Bee, thank you for letting me vandalise your leg ^^

MOVING ON...

Headed to Sheng Siong on Saturday Morning with Gi, Ruby & Zi to get the Groceries. Gideon was going to cook BeeHoon (which btw, was impressively good), Ruby & Faith - fried Seaweed Chicken and Me - mum's shiokodoos recipe of Burgerdale. Sadly, we didnt take any photos during cooking which WE SHOULD HAVE! *pouts* But cooking with Gi was super FUN & i must say, his skills are pretty good too. *wide smiles* We should have a 'Cook Off' sometime bee.

NEXT UP...

So, at the party which was filled with many many yummy food (which i could only watch and drool over), point noted. There was, Beehoon, Chicken Curry(very spicy), Burgerdale, Seaweed Chicken, Samosa, Cheese Tofu, Spring rolls, Fishball and Ben & Jerry ice-cream!! After dinner came the Birthday Song & a little bit of Photo Taking ;)

Leonard, Julian, Gideon, Gerard

Tiffany

Faith, Ruby, Glenys

Lynnette, Tiffany

Ruby & Tiffany

Faith & Tiffany

Glenys & Tiffany

Small present from all of Us! Hope you liked it.

Glenys, Gideon, Julian

HOW WE ENDED...

There are more visuals on facebook. So if you are friends with us, you'll be able to view it :) The night ended with us playing cards till midnight-ish while it rained. Was too lazy to cab back home, therefore decided to stayover at Tiff's place. :) Clean up was super fun and taking turns to shower was fun fun fun! Just when we were all about to sleep, we did Facial masks too! :) Sponsored by Tiffany, SKII ^^ It was a great, fun night. I hoped you had a great memorable Fun birthday Bestie! :)

With that, Here is Me n Gi Signing off :)

Till Next time....

To you J.

G, i know you're gonna read the follows. Im sorry but bare with me.

It hurts to know what you have become. How desperate you have become to make things right. It hurts to know how you are torturing yourself. I wish i can comfort you and tell you everything will be alright. But i cant, cause this concerns me. For a year and a half, my love for you was real and unwavered. I wont say how you destroy it cause it is just to harsh of a word to use. I'm glad you have realised now what you want in life and you're doing everything to get it back. But there are just somethings when you lose it, you lose it for good. I'm touched by what you have done to fight for someone you have lost. That, is enough to let me know how much you have changed and how remorse you are. The anger and reprimanding of yourself. Please dont do that to yourself. Dont blame yourself k J. I do not hate you or anything. And i've already forgiven you long ago when you have realised what you really wanted. I'm glad you finally told me the truth, cos now my heart is rested knowing that you are truthful to yourself. Its just, its not going to change anything. All these while being together, i have never felt secured with you. I knew you would cheat. I knew something will happen. But i always wished your heart was stronger and not fall into temptations. Just that time after time, given so many chances, every disappointment just got deeper and deeper. I know you will say that you can make everything right from now on to give you a chance. But my heart no longer can do that. Honestly, meeting G opened my eyes to many things. I never imagine that i could find someone so comfortable and ideal. I always thought this only happens in fairytales and its too good to be true. But it is. And it is happening to me. And i am going to treasure that. Everything i've always prayed for since i was a little girl is coming forth. Even you, you have finally know what you want in Life too. I'm sorry, but its not going to be me. I really hope you'll stop torturing yourself and love yourself too. Thank you for the flowers, it is really pretty :) Thank you for the Soup, drink and the medicated rub. I really appreciate it. Even coming over to my office hoping to give me a lift. Thank you!

Take care of yourself for now alright. I would still love to have coffee/lunch/dinner with you someday. Just not anytime soon. Love yourself, and your family. Learn from your past and dont repeat it again. There is no easy way out in life. Remember that. Jiayou! with the business, may you have more contracts. Things are already getting better so JIAYOU! I'll always be rooting for you to succeed. :) Please dont do anything more for me, cause i cannot give you back anything other than friendship and no further than that. (but, not now once again). I really hope you'll wish me happiness be it who i am with. Be happy for me. Cause i really am now. Thank you J. *hugs!* Stop torturing yourself and be happy.

Always Remembered

06 October 2011

To Mr Steve Jobs,

(1955-2011)

The whole world has been talking about you since the WHOLE MORNING!

Yep, and i am going to be one of those too.

Im not going to say much,

but a BIG THANK YOU for your contribution to this society that i live in.

If it weren't for you and your team,

i wont be able to use the AWESOME iphone and its apps.

If it weren't for you,

i wouldnt even have an ipod shuttle that i can go running with.

May you Rest in Peace.

With Love,

Glenys

Next Chapter

03 October 2011

Once again, i can add another interesting chapter to "Glenys' Life Story" *joke* But seriously, so much drama has happened during this past week. I've been thinking things through everyday. And everyday just seems to become clearer to me. I'm happy with my decisions i've made today and i wont look back. I mean the past is a stepping stone for me to learn and challenge myself. If not for my past, i will not be who i am today. I may not have treasured the things that were dear or even look up to the people i respect.

Its a bit sad to know how much my decision has hurt people. And i really feel bad. But i really need to stop being a nice girl and fight for my own decisions because i really want to. Not out of sympathy or due to years of relationship. Sometimes when you lose it, you lose it. There is just no turning back to some situations and damage made. You can mend it, but you can never replace it. I am not someone who bares grudges. It only hurts me to think you would hurt me so much since i have never done anything to you. Am i such a person to be taken advantage of just because i am nice? Anyways, i am very happy and contented with my life now. :) So, moving on.

Yesterday, was quite an emotional turn. Though things have been resolved, it was a little disheartening to feel what i just felt. But we are all humans afterall and we do things to protect ourselves. Humans are selfish by nature. Just wished i didnt have to see you leave me like that. Just a tap on the knee, saying 'bye' AND YOU DIDNT EVEN LOOK AT ME!!!! That moment i really felt like sprinting down to ECP for a run. Or just till i start to pant really hard. Or actually i really wished it would have rained. I HOPE YOU FEEL SUPER BAD!!! so you'll make sure to never let this repeat. plus that getting mad incident. Whahahhaa! :) ^^ You're FORGIVEN anyways! hahas!

I'm feeling so happy now that things have been resolved and simply knowing that you will walk this with me is so comforting and has given me the strength that i need. You're text came in yesterday like a spinning bullet. One moment i'm alive, on moment i'm dead. But anyways, i got revived. LOL!

Oh well, theres still going to be many more battles up ahead. Jia you ba!! Lets fight for what we want and see if it really becomes a fairytale ending. TeeHee!